Saturday, February 28, 2009

What a mess!

Oh my gosh my house is a mess, well it's not that bad. I was cursed with the "curse" a week early and it just knocked me on my butt. I was busy yesterday trying to get laundry done but when I arrived at the laundry mat the sign on the door read, " closed due to a flood" so I decided to go to Walmart and pick up some flowers for the young girls accident site. I bought her roses. I then relapsed on my impulsive buying that I was going to tame. I bought my nieces each an article of clothing for Easter and I bought Avery and outfit. I left walmart and placed the roses on the pole where they memorialized Sherry's death. I went home and had the worst cramps but could only take Motrin. I have narcotic pain pills for my cramps but knew I would be needing to drive so I only took 3 800mg motrin on an empty stomach. Dumb idea. I was sick all day and night with nausea. After school we had cookie booth sales. I had to endure the pain and sit in the freezing cold. We came home after picking up pizza ( another impulse buy). I shivered for three hours. I had on 2 layers of clothing, two blankets and the heater up to 76 but could not get warm. I took one of my pain pills and still got no relief. It was a horrible night. Then at 11pm Miss Avery came into my room with the thermometer with a temp of 101.3. She had her friend staying the night so I decided to put Ave in bed with me so the little girl would not catch whatever Ave has. This morning at 9am I took Melissa (Ave's friend) to the booth sales, she substituted for Avery. Now I'm back at home, her temp is higher and her throat has white pus on it. Tomorrow Ian my son was supposed to attend church with us for the first time. All week at church I was boasting about my son finally coming with us. Now with Ave sick and no other family in this state to watch her we will all have to miss church. I think the devil had something to do with this. he wants to keep Ian in his snares. I'm committed to another booth sale tonight so I am going to borrow another girl scout to sit in Ave's place. Avery doesn't get the credit. She is 4 boxes shy of 100, selling 100 will earn her a special badge. a sweet g-ma that runs the cookie booth said she will make sure Ave gets those 4 boxes. I don't want to buy anymore, I already bought 18 boxes but I will if I have to. So this has been my life for the past 24 hours. The kitty is doing great but I don't think I will be letting her go, she is to sweet to toss back outside. I will post her on Craig's list. She is free to a good home and already spayed and vaccinated, she should be placed easily. Well I better go take my daughter to the doctors. Thanks for reading this long post:)

Friday, February 27, 2009

to close to home:(

This is Sherry Varo she just turned 17 last Saturday and on Tuesday night at 9pm after getting off the city bus after working her part time job she was struck by not one car but two cars and died instantly. This was 3 blocks from my house. Main street sits behind my house and it is a fast 4 lane main artery that is actually a highway cutting through town. Since I have lived here (3 1/2) years this young girl with her whole life ahead of her makes the 5th person killed by a vehicle on Main street. In a 50 block radius there are only 7 crosswalks. All the kids 6th grade and up take the city bus to school they have no school buses for the middles schools and high schools so all day kids are running across this Main street. Tuesday night it was raining pretty bad and alcohol was not a factor on the drivers part. I don't know how it happened but I do know it probably could have been prevented. There should be a crosswalk at each bus stop. I just drove by the scene of the accident and her family has memorialized a pole and one sign read " this is who she was, this is where she died" it has her picture. I just started crying. I think today I will go add some flowers. I did not know here personally but I am a mom with a son who travels that route 2 times a day. My heart goes out to this family. Children shouldn't die. I know she is with Jesus in heaven but she was cheated out of experiencing life and that is unfair. UPDATE::: I found out what happened. My sons g-friend is friends with Sherry's best friend. She got off the bus and was talking to a boy she liked on her cell phone, she made it to the second lane when she crossed the street then the first car struck her and she would have lived but the second car struck and drug her. I guess the boy heard alot of it on the phone. So sad and so preventable

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Busy day today

No time to be depressed today. I now know where my depression was coming from. I guess now I'm on a 3 week cycle:( After church last night I went and picked up the GS cookies. I ate a box minus 3 so that's 12 tagalongs I ate last night. I'm a pig. I have no self control when it's " that time". And who wants to walk when you have cramps that resemble labor pains. No thank you! I dont want to cook dinner either but with the economy scare I have decided to stop my impulsive spending.

Before church I went outside to feed the homeless cats and I noticed this female that I have been wanting to catch, she was being followed by all the boys so I know babies were soon to follow and I don't need more babies to worry about. She was from a litter this summer that was abandoned and I have been watching her and her siblings grow, anyways i caught her!! With my hands:) i stuck her in the bathroom and made her an appointment for this morning and she is now spayed, vaccinated, de-flead and ears cleaned. She was in heat so they want her to stay in my house for 2 weeks:( I will try and keep her that long. I'm so happy I caught her, I was feeling bad about not being equipped to do more for these cats. I did it and I'm proud of my accomplishment

Wednesday, February 25, 2009


That's how I feel. I'm depressed and trying to fight my way out of it. I just walked a mile hoping my body would release those happy chemicals. American Idol was not on last night, maybe because Oblama was speaking:( He is always talking but never says anything. I get to pick up the girl scout cookies tonight. Just in time for PMS. I can eat them all then be even more depressed. Maybe some retail therapy will help. Have a happy Wednesday!!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Lazy Day

I woke up at 7am and had my housework done by 8:30 am so I went back to sleep:) I have been feeling lazy, I normally do after Justin leaves. He is not taking his next time off until April 16th. That is a long time away. He has to report to jury duty on that date and we have Easter and both kids birthdays all in the same week so the longer he stays out the easier it is financially to deal with that week. Hopefully he will get a load this way and I can see him for a day. Ian stayed home from school today but I don't think he was sick I think he was just tired, we had Burger King for lunch. I really need to stop with all this fast food and I have not walked in over a week:( For dinner I am roasting a chicken with some baby red potato's and probably another veggie. American Idol comes on tonight. This is only the second season I have watched. Last nights topic at my Apples of Gold book study was "loving your husband". Next weeks topic is "loving your children" . I'm going to go visit your posts now I feel bad starting this late in the day:( Have a nice evening:)

Monday, February 23, 2009

Yay!! It's raining:)

Finally we are getting lot's of rain. It just rained for 36 straight hours, it just now stopped but it is due to rain all week. I'm so happy I love dark rainy days. This winter has been very dry, especially for my part of Oregon. We arrived home from church yesterday at 12:20 and hurried to pack a lunch and make some hot chocolate, we both bundled up and left at 12:41 to make it to the other side of town, we get to the Walgreens for our cookie sales and there is no one there. So I call the leader and she tells me that due to the rain and no shelter the day has been cancelled. I was like thanks for calling me. She said Oh I was getting ready to. So from there we went to the pet feed store to but Frontline, the lady at the counter noticed Avery was a girl scout and she ordered 9 boxes of cookies. She was very kind. Avery was on the second level of the shop and called me up to see the kittens, they were ferrets not kittens. Poor child is so sheltered. I have to get some housework done today and also I'm going to go see my therapist:) I like her alot, she is nurturing. I hope everyone has a good day today. Tonight is my womens bible study , our topic tonight is " loving your husband" . I dont know about these " submission" classes:(

Sunday, February 22, 2009

this and that Sunday chat:)

Look at these dogs, they are bed hogs
Good morning everyone:) Thanks so much for your kind words and sweet thoughts. It is nice knowing that I can share a situation on my blog and receive wonderful support from caring women:) Today is another busy day, we already had McDonalds for breakfast, I just love the pancakes they have. At 9:30 we go to church and that is for 3 hours, then after church we have girl scout cookie booth sales. It is cold and rainy today and we sit outside and sale cookies. Our booth today is in front of Walgreens, that's not a very busy spot:( I still have to go get the flea medicine, I never made it to the pet store yesterday. I found out yesterday that in March our troop is going camping at the lodge for 3 days and 2 nights. It will be fun, it is very pretty up at the lodge. I'm excited about this trip. Last year I wasn't an assistant troop leader so I didn't stay the night at camp, I would just drive back every morning to be a part of the hikes:) I like breaking the different poops open to see what the animals are eating, then we can tell what kind of animals they are. I know it sounds gross but it's really not. When I was little we would camp at Mt. Lassen in CA. and my uncles taught me to do that. Anyways, I must get ready for church. have a great day ladies!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

I want a different mom!!!

My mom is crazy always has been and always will be. We grew up walking on egg shells hoping not to set her off, trying to feel her moods. I feel so bad for my dad. I called my mom the other day when I was sick and i asked her for my granny's potato soup recipe, this is what she told me, " I gave it to you once Dana and if you cant find it that's too bad I'm not giving it to you again, go buy some from the store" I called my dad a bit later to check on him because it was apparent my mom was having "one of those days". I told him what mom had said earlier about the recipe he said " I know Dana, I will try and find it for you" then in the background I can hear my mom say, " I thought she was sick, tell her i will pray for her" she was being condescending and making fun of my for being really into knowing Christ. She will go from these mean verbal attacks to buying everyone presents. I feel so bad for my dad:(
Well Justin is gone and that's good, I don't like how he treats me when he drinks. He says not to listen to the names and the mean things he says that it's just the alcohol talking. I think names hurt.,Last night I went to movie night at my church and we watched "Fireproof" if you haven't seen the movie I highly recommend it. I'm going to go buy Justin the book.
We have girl scouts this morning then I need to go get Frontline for the animals, at three I'm going with my new friend Ruth to her pastors house for a women's bible study and fellowship. I babysit her daughter after school. Then I plan on just relaxing with Avery or as Avery would say " chillaxing" have a great Saturday!!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

sore throat:(

My throat is hurting today and I have just been resting and eating soup. I hope it doesn't get worse. I will visit each of you and then post more tomorrow. Thanks for all the sweet compliments of Avery. I think maybe my presence at the banquet made her uncomfortable sense no other mom's were there:( And maybe the lace frilly socks and pigtails were to babyish for an almost 9 year old.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

wordless wednesday

Averys corsage from dad

this is the badge she earned last night

opening ceremony with saying the pledge of allegience

I told her to strike a pose:)

he was so out of his element but I must say Im very proud of him for stepping out of his comfort zone and doing this for Avery

dont they look uncomfortable

here they all are doing the closing circle. Everyone has to hold hands. I was laughing so hard, if you knew my husband you would understand why it was funny. He lives in a truck, that explains it all:)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Thanks Brenda!!

My sweet friend Brenda who has had alot of ups and downs, mostly downs , presented me and all of her other friends with this award. Thanks Brenda!!
Tonight Justin is taking Avery to the father/daughter girl scout banquet. I will be a server. I ordered Avery a corsage today so Justin can present it to her. I will take my camera and get some pictures. I will post more tomorrow, the bedroom is dark and I cant see the keyboard We spent the morning preparing tax papers:) so now Justin is napping. have a great day!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Good results

this is my husband making dinner last night, he was a bit intoxicated and insisted that he would do better job than me
I just returned from getting my ultra sound results and they showed nothing but an enlarged uterus, no fibroids. I still don't know what she felt to order the ultra sound in the first place. She decided to put me on birth control pills to help with my periods. I had to have a blood test before she does to make sure I'm not a genetic carrier for blood clotting, my mom had this problem. In the past 18 months I have had many different procedures to try and figure out where my pain comes from, still no answers. They just give me pain pills. I can make 20 pills last 4 months so I know I'm not getting dependant on them. Here is our plan, birth control pills, Mirena IUD, uterus ablation scrapping the lining) and the last resort is a hysterectomy. Or I just deal with horrible periods. Okay that's enough about myself. I'm going to go visit all of you ladies now before Justin gets back on the computer:))

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Happy Nascar opening race day!!

before frosting, they have a cream cheese filling

I really don't care if this is the opening race day:) Justin does so we have to watch it. Justin did a good job picking out a gift for me. Usually he just says " go buy yourself something" this year he asked the ladies in the office for some tips and here is what he bought for me, 3 candles, 2 picture frames and he hand picked each chocolate in a heart shaped box. I think he did a good job. Avery gave me pink tulips and a heart shaped balloon and my son gave me nothing:) I made cupcakes and the cupcakes themselves were delicious but I had to go and ruin them with cream cheese frosting. It was too much cream cheese. I'm going to make another batch tomorrow and use chocolate frosting just like Kath recommends. Today I'm making an apple pie with frozen pie crust and 2 cans of apple pie filling :) For dinner we are having lasagna, french bread and salad. Justin wants spinach cooked into the lasagna. I skipped church this morning:( I feel guilty.

I hope everyone has a wonderful blessed Sunday!!!

Saturday, February 14, 2009


Here are just a few of my loves:)

Today is Valentines day and in just a few minutes I will be leaving to pick my husband up. I have not seen him for 3 weeks. Im all dressed up and looking quite lovely if I dont say so myself:) When we get home I will be making cupcakes, the recipe is from Kath, the cupcakes have a cream cheese filling. Im going to use a cream cheese frosting dies pink and some red. Justin will make the frosting for me, he is a good cook. He has requested hamburgers and potato salad for dinner oh and asparagus. Those are our plans just to enjoy some good food and each others company. Have a wonderfull day today and remember to let all the people you love know what they mean to you and maybe show an act of kindness to a stranger:)

Friday, February 13, 2009

this is funny:)

I pulled my back out this morning changing the cat box. Justin will be home tomorrow. I just have to push through the pain and get my work done. Happy Friday!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I wonder why.......

My cat always watching me do the dishes
Every time I begin to sweep my floors my cats come flying out of nowhere to watch and I think help. When I change my sheets those cats do the same thing, they come running in my room and jump on the bed. Do they think they are helping me? Why when I flush the toilet Kooders jumps on the toilet to watch the water and try to catch it. I love my cats they are very entertaining. Last night Kooders carried a pencil around the living room, dropped it into a blanket and buried it. He then spent the next 30 minutes looking for his pencil. He is a funny boy.
I just returned from my horrible ultra sound and now I have to wait until Monday for the results. I think Justin is planning on coming home Sunday instead of Tuesday. That would be nice. He is picking up a load in San Jose, CA and headed up north so he will be passing through our town and I will be able to meet him at the truck stop for a little visit:) I'm off to have lunch with the ladies from church, have a wonderful day:)))
I forgot to add that the ultra sound yesterday that I drank all the water for then drove 40 miles round trip was actually today:)

UPDATE::::: I will be picking up Justin on Saturday, he just called and told me that he is taking his time off early:) So everything I was planning on doing like house cleaning, laundry, clean car and shopping this weekend I now have to do it tomorrow. I also have a valentine feast at my son's school to attend. This is the first valentine in years we have spent together. YAY!! Im so happy I have waited a long time to see him:)))

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

wordless wednesday with words

We had snow flurries all day yesterday but nothing stuck:( I wanted to make a difference and help these cats but I think the project may be to big for me. I will just do what I can do. It is better than nothing dont you think? I went to the doctor yesterday for a follow up on the vertigo and the leg woumd. Both are much better and the doctor said we will never know what happened to my leg. She doesn't think it was a spider bite just some skin infection. The dizziness has subsided so that is good. I have my ultra sound this morning instead of Thursday. I lost 3 pounds on my own from walking. That was exciting. I still cant believe I wasted all that money on those stupid pills. I guess thats all I have to say Im kind of bummed out over the failure of my cat project. I should have known better. My only success is a clean house:( I know Im still fairly young and I can change that. Have a good day. I really need to see Justin

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

a very sad day

The cat that I thought was a kitten that I tried to save has passed away. The doctor just called me at 7:30 am asking for permisssion to put her to sleep. It turns out she was about one or two years old. Yesterday when I took her to the vet they asked to keep her for 3 days to pumop her with fluids, she was so starved. The nurse took her home last night and Roxy just went down hill. She was suffering. I feel very sad and angry. Her entire life was suffering and that makes me cry. I have all these cats I feed and Im frustated that people think animals are disposable. I have to go my doctor appointment is at 9

Monday, February 9, 2009

8 days left:)

Yay another week has begun:) Last night I was cooking a pork loin roast on a Pyrex dish and on my way out to go to church I checked it and the meat was looking like it was going to burn so I turned the hot water on to get some water to pour into the pan and apparently the water was cold and I poured it and the entire dish exploded and broke to pieces. I'm lucky it did not shatter into my face. It is not first time I poured cold water on to a hot Pyrex dish. The first time I didn't know better this time was carelessness. Now I have to go buy a new one. Last night at church I finally gave my quitting smoking testimony. I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest. I just felt like it wasn't about my nerves it was about giving God praise for what he did for me when I couldn't do it for myself and neither could anything else. I power walked two miles this morning. I really want to try and go for three. Now I'm just cleaning around the house, I might go do laundry. I'm curious what you ladies do for Valentines day. One year and only one Justin bought me diamond earring's. After that it has been chocolate and a teddy bear. I don't want stuffed animals I tell him. I want a bracelet this year but I wont get it. We really have never been the romantic type. I would like to but he wouldn't. He better take me out for dinner when he comes home. I have to tell him what to do, he wont initiate it. I always just buy myself presents and say "thanks baby". Oh well I still love him:))) He is getting books from me:) I know real romantic. He likes to read:) Okay ladies I'm off to putter around the house. I have to check on my foster kitten.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

this and that chit chat:)

My friend Barbara presented me with this award and I want to pass it on to all my friends. Thanks Barbara:)
Avery fluffing her new Build a Bear yesterday. She picked the Highschool Musical one.

My leg is looking good. The bruised coloring is almost gone and it is starting to itch. I guess I will never really know what it was. My vertigo is still bad, I have made another doctor appointment for Tuesday with my regular doctor. My vision is being affected by this "vertigo". I also have my ultrasounds on Thursday. Last night as I was leaving to pick Ave up at her friends I noticed a little kitten in the cat house I have on my porch. She is so bony she was starving and smelled so bad like fish and car grease. I have never seen her before or any kittens her age. She is about 4 months maybe 3. I brought her in and gave her food and water and a bath, I also de-wormed her. Justin says I cant keep her:( I will take her to the vet hopefully tomorrow for vaccines. Ians girlfriend said she wants her but cant take her until she get's her own place in a couple of months. I will foster her until then. Avery named her Roxy and I added the Bo Boxy so her name is Roxy Bo Boxy. (9 more days until my honey comes home. Avery's GS troop is having a father/daughter banquet on the 17th. I hope I will be picking him up in time so he can go. He usually doesn't attend anything so getting him to agree to do this is really a big deal:) It will make such an important memory for Avery. I better get going, I have to get ready for church. Have a blessed Sunday!!!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

10 more days

I'm counting down the days, it seems to help them go by faster. We have girls scouts this morning and after that I'm taking Avery and the other two girls I babysit to the Build A Bear to all get an animal. Avery's is a valentine gift and the other girls both have birthdays this month so I'm getting them gifts. I'm having alot of problems with Avery and her behavior. She is mean and her attitude is ugly. I understand that it is hard to share your moms attention but if I wasn't babysitting she would be begging for these two girls to come over and play. My leg is now purple and I made an appointment for Tuesday with my doctor to discuss this vertigo. It is messing with my eyes. I will visit later I have 3 bickering girls to attend to. have happy Saturday:)

Friday, February 6, 2009

my recent rewards and a game

This lovely award is from my friend Linda she honored me with this for having a great attitude and grattitude. Thanks Linda. I would like all my friends to pick up this award, everyone deserves it:)
My friend Barbara awarded me this because I am fabulous:) Im supposed to list 5 addictions but really cant think of any thing besides chocolate, cookies, cupcakes, cake and cho. milk. Those would be my 5 addictions. If you are reading this consider this award yours. I think everyone who reads my blog is also fabulous. I truly do mean that:)

I was tagged by my friend Toni " the mind of a mom" to play this purse game. I was supposed to show the contents of my purse and share the cost and where I bought my purse and then tag some friends to play along. I bought this purse at Walmart and paid $13.99 and that is actually clean for my purse. It usually has about 50 reciepts in it and I can never find anything.I cleaned out my purse 2 nights before I was tagged to play this game. If you are visiting my blog then consider yourself tagged:)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

here is my leg: parental discretion advised:)

this morning, I know it's gross but I thought I would share with the class:)
this is this evening, it is bruised now, I guess from squeezing it

wordless Wednesday with words:)

So yesterday I went to do laundry and someone either left a red crayon in the dryer or Avery had one in her pocket. An entire load of clothes were ruined with red melted crayon. I guess I need to be more careful and check the dryers and the pockets. I have decided that my kids are old enough to turn their clothes right side in and check their own pockets. So for now on every night before laundry day the two of them will sit and sort their clothes:) Problem solved, hopefully. Justin is laid over in Minnesota today taking his 36 hour re-start. I plan on just cuddling up on the couch and chatting with him all day. I was finally able to catch up on shopping and cleaning yesterday. I just had to run outside and take the garbage can to the street he was at the house next door and my son didn't do it last night like I asked. Im out of breath. Good thing I heard him coming. Anyways I do have meats to seperate and vacum seal. I will get that done sometime today. I think I will cook a pork roast for dinner tonight and then we will go to church. Avery has Missionettes tonight. I have a few awards to collect and post and a purse game to play. I have not forgotten I made a note and it is right here on my desk:) Have a positive blessed day :)))

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

feeling a little better

I was able to walk my 2 miles this morning and I am feeling a little better. The ladies last night from womens bible study prayed around me. I do think it is a spider bite. That doctor just had me pull my pants down when she looked at it for 2 seconds she didnt even touch it. Im on antibiotics so thats good. The leg still looks the same but I have some energy today, enough to go do laundry. I was going to post a picture of my wound but it's on my upper thigh. I squeezed it in the shower and almost passed out from the pain. It's not a pimple. Thank You to everyone for your advice and encouraging words. Kooders is the happiest cat I have ever seen. He was being so goofy last night, it was funny to watch him. Justin is on his way to Minnesota and then to North Dakota, only 14 more days until he comes home. he will be home for 6 days:). I better get going to the laundry and shopping. I will be by to visit when I return

Monday, February 2, 2009

no title

I took my cat to the vet this morning to be neutered and he was so nervous he pooped all over the inside of the carrier and it was a small carrier. Avery and I had to endure the smell as we drove for 55 minutes because I was lost. I pick him up at 3:30 I hope that he is so sedated that he cant poop again. I went to the doctors yesterday and she said that I have Vertigo and an infected pimple. I don't get pimples on my legs and where did this Vertigo come from. I googled it and It just made me more curious. I don't like it when I don't see my regular doctor. I constantly feel like I just stepped off an amusement ride, it is hard to get any cleaning or shopping done. I shouldn't even be driving but I am the only mom and Dad is always gone. These are the times I really miss him and get pretty sad:( Even reading is becoming difficult. If by Friday I have no relief from the spinning and the antibiotics do nothing for my leg I am going back to see my regular doctor. I feel guilt for trying to lay on the couch and rest. I couldn't do it I had to get up and clean the kitchen someone has to do it, it cant just clean itself. Thanks for listening to my rant. Rush Limbaugh is on right now so Justin is unavailable. I missed church last night because Justin wanted to "visit" he really wanted me to spend an hour searching cigar websites to order him cigars because the 50 in the humidor I guess are not good enough. Ok I'm done:) have a good day!!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

before surgery pictures

viewer discretion advised: this is how my son found kooders sitting, tomorrow he has his boy amputation:) This young man adopted us back on September 20th 2008.